Fears, resentments, hatred of someone—this is all stagnant mental and emotional garbage.
These are those parts of you that should have manifested themselves in certain situations, but you listened to your mind. You hid the emotion and pushed it deeper, where it had already taken root over all these years of living in you. It turned into a conviction and an automatic reaction to a certain type of situation.
Perhaps you were an inquisitive child and one of your close relatives told you everything to devalue any of your manifestations, even if it was a joke, and you, being inexperienced and incofident, took it and believed it, or took it and swallowed resentment or anger.
Now you are 30+ years old, and you notice certain patterns and cyclicalities of your ups and downs in the basic components of life:
health, wealth, love, and happiness.
You start trying to find out the problem with the help of all sorts of psychological and spiritual practices.
What is wrong with you?
Why do you have a constant troubles in some areas of your life?
As a result, you find in yourself an eternally ongoing dialogue with someone you have been upset about or angry at since childhood.
After decades, you still have this conversation in you, and maybe even your offender is no longer alive, but you still subconsciously look for him/her in everyone with whom you communicate.
The pity fact is that you find the offender even in those who are absolutely different from the one with whom you often have an internal dialogue all these years.
You are like someone who sees hallucinations, and you are convinced of the authenticity of your illusory vision.
Accordingly, any person in this case who interacts with you will experience an undeserved attitude towards themselves, which will lead to the breaking of the connection between both of you.
For you, this will also cause a certain type of misunderstanding and disappointment, first of all in yourself.
Here, you will have to have a serious conversation with yourself.
Perhaps it will even be very emotional and supported by “special effects” in the sensations of the body.
It sounds interesting, isn’t it?
What to do, then?
If you are sincerely interested in my answer, then it means that you definitely haven’t be sincere with yourself; you haven’t spoken to yourself honestly, without any hypocrisy to which you conditioned, having identified you with your environment and pleasing it.
You have ignored or suppressed your own feelings that are opposite to the imposed belief.
Carl Jung called these shadows; Eckhart Tolle called them the pain body, In different traditions, they are called demons or informational parasites that live in the psyche.
The most exciting fact is that all of them are you—those parts of you that want your love.
So give yourself some love!
What is the problem?
Are you asking “how”?
It’s simple.
Love yourself.
May love be with you!
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