Do you regret anything?

Life flows through us, and we are forced, passing it through ourselves, to react to the events that arise in it. Events themselves are neutral, but our reaction is always polar: negative or positive. Polarity is always relative. The richer our experience, the closer we are to the balance between polarities, which is synchronization with the flow of life itself.

Any experience is priceless in itself; it is important to realize what the experience you go through teaches you. Otherwise, it will repeat itself again and again.

Regret about something is a signal that the lesson has not been learned and you will have to deal with it again.

Solitude and meditation are two of the most effective ways to review past trials and look at your character’s life from different angles.

Accepting what was and is, forgiving others and yourself—this path seems difficult and sometimes impossible. Only fear can hinder this process of awareness and liberation from shackles.

What’s your biggest fear? Look straight at it, because most often we are afraid of what we cannot see.

May love be with you!

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Find yourself

What was your greatest discovery of your life?

When all attempts to pull on the images of the surrounding society failed and the dark time came for the loss of any meaning to live, at that very time something happened that led me to the greatest discovery of my life.

By a happy coincidence, at the age of seventeen, I had the opportunity to leave my parents’ home, the country in which I was born and raised, and go to the other side of the globe, where I was completely on my own. At that time in my life, I did not have a mentor or someone who could correct the direction of my growth.

I was surrounded by the same careless people whose lifestyle boiled down to an endless feast and satisfaction of carnal pleasures, and somewhere in parallel, there was a barely noticeable awareness that such a path leads to inevitable self-destruction.

There were also those who, indulging society, accepted the generally accepted path of the average person, enslaved by career growth and the thirst for profit, and who, one way or another, did all this in order to ensure that very idleness.

As it turns out later, the so-called idleness was a way to drown out the pain lodged deep inside, but I would find out this almost a decade later.

No matter how terrifying it may sound, as I described above, in fact, I am eternally grateful for the path I have traveled, on which I have had the opportunity to put on countless masks and try on many roles, among which there was not one that personified the real me.

When life brought me to the question “Who am I?”, I stood on the threshold of something else; I’ll call it “incorporeal existence,” that is, the end of earthly existence. It was during this darkest time that I found what I had been looking for for so long in the world around me—the real me, which I had ignored for many years, and he waited patiently, watching over and over again the false me cause pain and suffering to my body.

It is the discovery of oneself that is, for me, the greatest of all. My experience shows that every person on the planet, to some degree or another, is trying to find themselves.

I wish everyone who consciously follows this path to come to their true selves.

May love be with you!

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Seems you make a step back.

Everything is cyclical in our lives, and many things that we supposedly understood come back to life again, and we seem to go through the same lesson.

A lesson can be learned by repeating it many times until there is not a single question left and no one reacts. This is a test of how much you have learned from the last turn of the spiral of reality.

Don’t lose trust in the process; live and learn the facets of yourself and the world around you, and thank everything and yourself for what you experience. Everything exists for you and your growth.

Remember that the world is your reflection, what you give to it, it reflects, refracting the reflections with the edges of endless mirrors in the form of people and situations.

Refracting the light of consciousness may seem like something new, but everything new is a forgotten constant.

May love be with you!

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Make your mind your servant, not your boss.

At a certain level of awareness, information and experiences begin to form logically related concepts. The analytical mind copes well with this task; it connects parts of seemingly unrelated facts and stories into a whole picture using logic. Where is the guarantee that the experience experienced by this mind or bunch of minds reflects reality and not just one of its facets?

The mind is a wonderful mechanism that should be trained to submit to life and not to subordinate life itself.

The mind, after all, is a phenomenon of life, and it looks funny when the mind, imagining itself to be the main thing in all existence, begins to destroy life around it.

Like a child fired up by a desire or an idea, he will try to use logic to adjust the circumstances while hiding the truth.

But then, as the experience of mankind shows, no matter how brilliant the idea, mistakes will still be made in it, which will lead to the collapse of everything created.

I am not calling on anyone to stop operating in life using the mind, I am reminding myself and you that the mind is a tool that should be mastered and used for its intended purpose.

Often, when solving a problem, the mind always creates an even larger problem, and then war and other man-made disasters happen.

May love be with you!

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Awakening

In a couple of years, you can barely find a reason to be or do anything.

There is no joy in all activities: meeting with friends, doing art, even nature. You’re still scrolling through mass media feeds that are full of informational junk, but you still believe that you can find the exit from this desperate condition, or it seems this is the end of you.

You have tried so hard to follow the paths that your parents or society gave you since you were a kid. It seems nothing works for you.

People will tell you that you are a loser, others will tell you that you should see a doctor, someone will try to persuade you to follow their suggestions.

None of them knows that you see no spark in life. Only heavy desperation and obsessive thinking are left in you.

Days are copies of each other.

The bitterness of loneliness fills your entire being.

You scream, you cry, you are furious, and you don’t care anymore.

And this day has come, and you understand that this is the real end, and some invisible force is pulling you out of your body.

First, you are scared and after a few moments, you realize that there is nothing to be scared about, you just need to accept that this is the end of the suffering you have lived in for such a long time.

Your body is still here, but you can no longer move it. You feel the last beats of your heart and how your brain sends its last signals to the body, and…

Complete void.

Nobody, nothing, no light or dark, but I am.

I am.

May love be with you!

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Obsessive thinking

It happens that there are arguments in your head with yourself about something.

You notice that the mind is responsible for going dialogue. You just listen to your own thoughts and think that you are going crazy because the voice in your head expresses the good and the bad in you.

Furthermore, you clearly understand that at the moment you are not related to either one voice or another, you seem to be observing and witnessing the dialogue in your own mind, using the same mind at the same time.

At such moments, we notice the duality of the work of our mind.

Being a whole, the mind divides everything into opposites, including itself, and this is its natural function.

Managing your own mind is what I would recommend everyone do.

Do not suppress or encourage the mind, but use its functions for their intended purpose, and stop giving attention to the stream of endless thoughts about something produced by the mind when there is no need for it.

Otherwise, the mind becomes a frenzied copying machine of opposing thoughts.

I wish you to experience a calm mind.

Even if it seems like it’s not working out, don’t stop, just be and breathe. That’s enough.

Be still and observe youself.

May love be with you, dear friend!

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Do not compare!

Do not compare yourself.

Of course, you can do it if you want.


It is an interesting fact that many of us ignore that we don’t feel or see things like anyone else in this world.
You were special from the beginning of your life.
Nothing is the same; even if you make a copy of yourself, it won’t be the same as you. It will go through its own copy’s experience of existence.

The way you express yourself now can’t be repeated or copied by anyone.
Those emotions and reactions are based on things that you went through, and they are so unique.
From this point of view, respect for the self should increase in you.

Sometimes people undervalue or overvalue their own characteristics when they start to compare themselves with others. It leads to nonstop seeking of the self in the totally wrong place.

As you move further into search through comparison, the more desperate you become.
Such a trick of the mind and reasonable reaction of the real you, who you suppressed for such a long time while you were trying to be like anyone around but who you really are.

Betrayal of the self is a really painful experience because of its unmeasurable price.
By doing so, you ignore your natural potential that was given to you at higher levels of existence.
It is so powerful that it can create ideas and things; it can influence matter and make new worlds, life forms, etc. In other words, we can call it divine power.

If during your life path you don’t realize this power in you and keep it suppressed deep in you, it might destroy you from inside.

If you are drawn into ignorance, you might see the reason for your failure in anyone but yourself.
Others are just your reflection on the fabric of 3D reality.

You can’t hide anything from yourself.

May love be with you!

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You are not alone. Love yourself!

Fears, resentments, hatred of someone—this is all stagnant mental and emotional garbage.
These are those parts of you that should have manifested themselves in certain situations, but you listened to your mind. You hid the emotion and pushed it deeper, where it had already taken root over all these years of living in you. It turned into a conviction and an automatic reaction to a certain type of situation.

Perhaps you were an inquisitive child and one of your close relatives told you everything to devalue any of your manifestations, even if it was a joke, and you, being inexperienced and incofident, took it and believed it, or took it and swallowed resentment or anger.
 
Now you are 30+ years old, and you notice certain patterns and cyclicalities of your ups and downs in the basic components of life:
health, wealth, love, and happiness.

You start trying to find out the problem with the help of all sorts of psychological and spiritual practices.
What is wrong with you?
Why do you have a constant troubles in some areas of your life?

As a result, you find in yourself an eternally ongoing dialogue with someone you have been upset about or angry at since childhood. 
After decades, you still have this conversation in you, and maybe even your offender is no longer alive, but you still subconsciously look for him/her in everyone with whom you communicate.

The pity fact is that you find the offender even in those who are absolutely different from the one with whom you often have an internal dialogue all these years.

You are like someone who sees hallucinations, and you are convinced of the authenticity of your illusory vision.

Accordingly, any person in this case who interacts with you will experience an undeserved attitude towards themselves, which will lead to the breaking of the connection between both of you.
For you, this will also cause a certain type of misunderstanding and disappointment, first of all in yourself.

Here, you will have to have a serious conversation with yourself.
Perhaps it will even be very emotional and supported by “special effects” in the sensations of the body.

It sounds interesting, isn’t it?
What to do, then?


If you are sincerely interested in my answer, then it means that you definitely haven’t be sincere with yourself; you haven’t spoken to yourself honestly, without any hypocrisy to which you conditioned, having identified you with your environment and pleasing it.
You have ignored or suppressed your own feelings that are opposite to the imposed belief.

Carl Jung called these shadows; Eckhart Tolle called them the pain body, In different traditions, they are called demons or informational parasites that live in the psyche.

The most exciting fact is that all of them are you—those parts of you that want your love.
So give yourself some love!
What is the problem?
Are you asking “how”?
It’s simple.
Love yourself.

May love be with you!

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Perfect mechanism

You have been born into the world in a technological and universal suit—a body that recovers itself if damaged.
It can move quite deftly in space and easily adapt to almost any condition.
Your body is recharged during sleep and also from the fruits of the surrounding world.

We shouldn’t ignore the fact that this body is served by a very complex device called the mind, which is a quantum computer. 
It is what makes reality tangible, helping the body navigate space and make decisions based on natural or acquired programs.

After all, you must admit what a perfect device you, I, and every person temporarily have.

Somehow, most humans choose to destroy this body by letting the mind take control of life in it.
 
If the mind is only a mechanism or tool, how can it decide what is good for life?
If the body and mind are a kind of device, then who controls this whole mechanism and assigns tasks to the mind and body?
Is this you? Who are you? Who am I?

May love be with you!

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Lust is not romantic

Since many of us are taught by the culture that surrounded us in childhood and also by the programs that we have absorbed from watching the mass media,

The image of romantic love is associated only with the instinct of reproduction.

Therefore, for many people, the relationship with a partner is entirely tied to the desire to satisfy their pussies and dicks, and for others, it is a way of manipulating others by limiting access to their genitals.

The greatest misconception from which more than one generation of people, representatives of different cultures and nations, has suffered

Especially in the age of technology, when the speed of information transfer has become instantaneous, and, of course, with the development and popularization of the porn industry, people have become even more hostage to their genital pleasures.

After all, relationships between representatives of different sexes are a very complex communication system.

Run with your desire to copulate, thereby supporting and developing the industry of pumping life energy out of you and those around you.

I will explain with an example so that everyone can understand what I mean:

Two young organisms have seen enough and read enough information that a man should be a male and have intercourse with all the females who look at him.

And a girl who should be a housewife at home but is a whore in bed.
This may initially be perceived as a joke, but after repeated repetition of these thoughts by everyone around, the joke becomes a joke in the stream of distorted truth.

Since the reproductive instinct is one of the strongest we have, it is therefore difficult for a young organism that does not understand the structure and characteristics of its body to understand that this is not the only thing that attracts us to a potential partner.

It seems that as soon as lust appears, it means it is love, and you must certainly master, appropriate, and focus your life on serving one of your instincts while ignoring others.

The consequences, of course, are completely ignored, either due to inexperience or deliberately ignored.

And after all, people sincerely don’t understand why things don’t work out for them with any of their partners.

The reason is the typical consumer attitude towards both oneself and others.

Now a question for the reader

How long ago did you understand that you were a product, and did you understand it at all?

Let this position be chosen consciously by many people so that they receive their material benefits.

And those who do not understand their status in the food chain and do not realize that they have been driven crazy and are stupidly let other monetizing their life energy in return, a system leaves them with their exhausted bodies and psyches? …

Here, I would like to leave us or you alone with this beautiful thought.

I wish you an endless, wonderful time now and true self-love!

May love be with you!

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